It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like....

Well, it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas, but I can't say it "feels" like Christmas, at least, not for some of the people I work with each day.

It's so hard when people face great hardships in their lives.

 
It feels grey. 

Lifeless. 

Lights don't sparkle.

Carols have no meaning.


 Why does that happen? What is it that makes a person "feel" Christmas? 

I don't think there is anything at all that makes a person "feel" Christmas. I just think life blots out Christmas along with all the other things that have potential to bring joy.  When things happen, sickness, loss, depression - everything else that's happening around you gets lost as the darkness consumes, feeding off you, a parasite draining its host of energy.

Life's like that sometimes.

How do we find our way from grey to sparkling lights again?

We have to spend time, deliberate time, looking deep within ourselves. For there, we find the Spirit, deposited on the day of Salvation, the day we looked to a power higher, stronger, greater than ourselves. That's where Jesus is. He is where our strength lies.

However, you have to spend time...you can't rush it.

Why not? I want joy and I want it now! I want to "feel" Christmas now! Time is running out!

No, be still. Listen to that still small voice within you.

I love this psalm.

Psalm 13 (my own paraphrase for those who are feeling grey)

OK God! How long is this gonna take? Will you leave me like this forever? 
I can't even see you! How long will you hide your face from me?

How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and
day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long am I going to have to deal with this pain and depression and loss?

I'm tired of you not answering me, Lord! Look at me, I'm helpless!
You promised to love me and I need you to light up the lights around
me and make life real to me again!

If you don't do this, the pain will win! The darkness will consume me
and people will say "Where is your God now?"

Oh, I know you're there...I know you love me. 
You know I'll trust you...why? Because I know you'll come through in your own good time.

Even though I don't feel like it, I'll sing your praises anyway,
because you've always been there before, you've delivered me again and again.

And, well...I love you.

grace...Kathie

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